My post tonight is one that we knew is coming….. we didn’t know exactly how much time he has left but yes the days are numbered…… it has been the most difficult two days but has also been the most difficult bunch of weeks.
He made his way into my heart and my life at a time when I need him some much but at the same time I was terrified to have him. I remeber his beautiful blue eyes and his first bunch of cries of loneliness the first day or two…. but our lives were turn upside down with love and he most definitely filled a rather large void in our lives.
He was the perfect shade of chocolate and he was the sweetest puppy. He fit our lives so well and we his little life. I think everyone like us was so taken with him his big huge paws and his fat little belly but he most definitely won our hearts mine especially in those first couple days.
Our cats at the time were not so very happy this was not what they wanted…… they checked him out from a distance and sniffed the air and usually hid under the bed or sofa were it would not be very easy to be pounced on by a puppy.
Rusty had the honor of naming him and his name was murdoch after the a team show not the detective…. so many walks, so many runs in the park and going for rides was his favorite. Up in the seat next to me or on my lap for the first little but as he grew….. we would go camping and visiting with his other dig relatives….. he absolutely loved it all. We took day trips here and there and he even got to be doggie sat for a weekend…..
He loved all his chew toys… balls…. ropes…. and kongs….stuffed animals with or without squeakers were a favorite too…. sometimes he would try to drag the stuffed animal that was his size all over the house. I list track of how many fiber stuffing balls and scraps I picked up. They all made him so happy as he was such a happy-go-lucky dog… we got to love him.
We even took a long trip in the car to our new home that would give him beaches to run on and trails to sniff and a huge backyard to run around in. He love it…. he was such a trooper.
I have had the pleasure of him being my farm dog and hanging out with me all day chasing mice, voles and rats and squirrels…..he has been my constant companion day in and day out keeping me company on our old farmhouse.
He has outlived his expected age and the last couple months he has really slowed down…. but the last many weeks we have really seen a huge decline in his all around health. He was having a harder time getting into the van for rides…..his hearing was going and he started to have a hard time trying to go up and down the stairs. Seeing all these things you just know ……. what all dog parents know.
But really nothing prepared me and Rusty for the utter sadness yesterday and today. I woke him up from his nappie yesterday evening when Rusty came home cause thats what we do….. i helped him up cause he is usually stiff….. but this time something was different….. he walked very slow to the back addition and then he just stood there and panted really hard. He just didn’t want to go out…. but I knew he needed to go out. In fact he hadn’t really been up all day…. but neither was I as i had a migraine. He went back into the kitchen but he was so unsettled. He was really not himself….. he looked like he had to do business then I said oh my we have to get him outside…… he had his first accident in the house in 13 years having him…. poor fellow. After I cleaned everything up I went outside to see what was up and Rusty was laying down on the deck with him. He could hardly breath and the panting was so laborious. We had never seen him like this ever. We both laid down with him on the floor and we thought for sure he wasn’t going to make it through the evening. I cried so hard as I am gonna miss my friend….. my best dog friend ever…..
I remarked that he had not left his dog bed all day….. he wouldn’t eat dinner and would not eat his treats. Now that is unusual for him as he loves his food and treats… its serious and this might be it.
Rusty decided to sleep downstairs with him last night …… a restless night. When they got up this morning they went out and he did his business he came back in and had a couple really good drinks of water and a hand full of dog treats. That’s it…. he had a small taste of his food and a couple cookies he has not been interested in food.
I took him out this evening and I could barely get him back to the house…. he can barely walk…. when Rusty came home he took him out again we had to half carry him back with a blanket underneath him………I am so sad and broken he is declining pretty fast.
We have the hardest decision to make tonight and into the next few days….I haven’t stopped crying and I won’t for a while…….. how do you let go of your best friend…… WE GOT TO LOVE HIM🐾 but I don’t want to let him go yet♡
Say a prayer please because these things are never easy♡
Muddy Boots, Old Houses and The Farm 